How to thin out thick hair?

Oh how I wish that is me asking that question. How to thin out my thick hair? Cause mine is 'volume-less' and thinning. It is almost depressing. I'm just taking away my focus to my hair and look on the bright side. At first I blame it all to my three pregnancies within 6 years, they say it could be brought about by hormonal changes after pregnancy, but for the love of me, my youngest is now 2 aren't them hair supposed to grow back? Thick and luscious? Arrggh! I've been dealing with Alopecia ever since my college days ( which was ages ago btw!) yes they grow back, but every time I hear them doctors tell me I have an autoimmune disease,It scares the cr*p out of me. But it is not life threatening according to my doctorS (with an S, coz I've seen a lot) that is maybe why it's been disregarded by them and dermatologist I've seen a lot of times...:(

It's an autoimmune disease- I've had it since my late teenage years- a disease where the body attacks good parts of the body ,it is attacking its own hair follicles that is. It is not pretty, it really is not pretty. I've had steroid injections ,topical cream etc...the good thing is my hair grows back but it sure is not pretty. So how to thick out my thin hair? Minus 1 gorgeousness point for me,,Arrrghh! ... :(

Patience

Patience- It sure is something! The Pastor's message this morning really hit me where it matters. It's almost feel like he wrote his speech specifically for me. Patience is something that I'm lacking lately and I hate to admit it's taking a toll on my marriage and my relationship with kids. Yes, sometimes counting one to ten and breathing in and out doesn't work.
It's the time of year where, my brain is occupied with too much. I was like a kid, I can't wait to be 6 yr old, to be able to do this...to do that..I can't wait , I can't wait! I even told my self, I can't wait for my kids to grow up so that I could find a job. I worry a lot thinking I could accomplish things by worrying, the truth is No, I don't.

Today's sermon was a breather, I needed it so bad. Stopped me from wanting my time to move forward and hurry things up. It Reminded me of how important it is that I should enjoy my life now as it unfolds. That my kids are not going to be kids forever,that time flies super fast. That in times of hardship it's your attitude towards life that matters,it's the joy of living life every single day in spite of bad circumstances that will make you say, I live!

Jealousy: He said,She said....

I'm dealing with a current family situation that is totally hilarious. I never remember my family as dramatic in dealing with life's situation anyways, I always remember us taking life's challenges very lightly. Now, I'm torn between believing or laughing, I guess I chose to just laugh about it. My parents, after almost 35 years of being married suddenly doubted each others love. At first I thought I was just being insensitive to even joke about it, or maybe part of my brain is hoping it isn't really happening. Jealousy tsk tsk tsk.... :)

I talked to my mom on the phone last week and listened to her side of the story. Honestly I felt bad, I was angry at my Dad. I told her " You guys are too old for dramas like this , Mom!" I worry a little bit. My only concern was being too far away from my Mom, that when she needs me I can't be there for her right away. But now after talking to my Dad, I thought It was really funny. He told me everything and we started laughing about it. But I also told him to do something, talk to my mom and try to deal with the situation like adults and not act like teenagers. OMG,good thing they don't have Facebook,I hate to read their status updates. As a married woman I could go on and on about how sometimes we feel unloved, lonely, neglected, that marriage becomes less and less intimate as we grow older. It's hard when insecurities are slowly eating you. I don't really know what my mom is going through right now but I promise her that what ever happen I'll always be there for her and that she is not alone.

November Rain

I don't know why rain does this to me. Ever since I remember, when it rains I feel crap, I act weird, my attitude change. If it's raining I assure you I'm in a crappy mood. It rained last night and that is the reason why it's almost 4 am here, I am still wide awake. I can't get out of the punk that this rain has caused me.

The nostalgia is killing me, It's worst than hearing my all time favorite song. Something about the rain makes me miss my family back in the Philippines, something about it makes me remember my childhood and worst something about the rain makes me question happiness weather I am or not, where or what?

That is why I love this GunsNroses' song.....because maybe it's what I need, who knows, how would I know?

"Sometimes I need some time on my own
Sometimes I need some time all alone
Everybody needs some time on their own
Don't you know you need some time all alone"

Too Personal!

This blog is pretty much new, Yes I started it since 2008 but I had only one or two posts back then and I lost interest (got hooked to Facebook,for sure just like many others). It is only this year, about 3 months ago actually that I found out how much I enjoyed blogging. I was wondering if it's okey to write something personal that is too personal, like admitting on the web how much I am struggling within. Admitting it out loud to my self is scary how much more venting it out 'cyberly'. I don't know. I heard it's a good thing to vent on the web and be surprise how much advice you get from people you don't even know. And that you are not alone with your struggle. I don't want to sound like I complain too much, I also know that sometimes friends get tired of listening to the same b#llS*#t you are telling them that all they want to see from you is to finally do something. Sometimes,griping is likely to put you down than giving you benefit,I found that out to be true. Today I want to start a complain-free day and see if I could last a week, NOT- complaining is free anyway.

Out of the Blue, I'm feeling Blue :-(

I wonder why? It's a gorgeous day today,perfect weather actually. Not too hot,not too cold and here I am feeling Blue! Like literally the garbage can under my table is full of tissue paper from me crying just because. It's one of those day we're you wish your hormones are to be blame but not really. It's just that I feel so tired,scared,overwhelmed by life itself. I feel like I've been hit by buckets of lemons and I can't find the right concoction for my lemonade to be palatable. Hahhhh! life!!!
I really need someone to talk to but I don't wanna dump my same old sentiments to my friends. It'll be unfair! I wish my Bestfriend Faye is just a "tricycle ride" away. I miss her so much! I wish Yehleen ( my lil sister ) lives nearby, I sure could use a big hug.

Tipsy Tip of the day: Yay! A Cheaper way to whiten your teeth!

I am not paid to do this,but this tip really worked.For me at-least and for some people. I am on my fourth day of using it and I see a lot of difference from before. When I was in the Philippines,I was told that yellow teeth means stronger teeth but I guess whoever he/she was,they're wrong so I had my teeth professionally whitened twice here,the last one was a year ago and it was a horrible experience.The sealant leaked and it hurts like hell and all I got was an apology from the dental assistant.For the price I paid,I wasn't too happy with the result. So I guess this experiment I did is not going to hurt me financially right even if it won't meet the standard lol. Well,you can't beat $1.99+tax of Hydrogen peroxide and baking soda right? At the back of the container you'll see it says Oral Hygiene,see? Warning though it taste really bad :(
And I'm learning a lot about hydrogen peroxide and it's uses,like for cleaning floors,glass windows,counter tops etc. It is anti-bacterial, anti-fungal, anti-mold and anti-mildew. Best of all it is cheap.

The picture above was taken the first night I tried it. Then the picture below was taken today.

What I do is mix 1 part of hydrogen peroxide with 1 part water,rinse my mouth with it,let it stay in my mouth as long as I can. Then do the same with a tbsp of baking soda,mix with half a glass of water,rinse my mouth with it. Then I brush my teeth with the regular toothpaste we regularly are using. I do it at night. Just because I feel like doing it at night you can do it anytime of the day of corz! Warning again ding ding ding!! = It taste AWFUL :(

It's not going to come out like the Hollywood Actors' sparkly white teeth but close enough to give the World my much needed smile right?

I'm a mess ;-(

Even Sitting down here in front of my computer hurts,so I will make this post very short. I pulled muscle on my lower back. My back is somewhat twisted.I was holding a bag of grocery on my left hand and Bridget asked me to pick her up so I did.Picked her up with my right hand,I didn't feel any pain except for a little tweak on my right hips,I do it all the time. The next day I couldn't stand up,can't get out of our bed.It hurts like hell but the pain is on the left side forcing my upper body to lean to the right. I'm not blaming Bridgy Brat, i love her so much. I wonder if I injured my back while sleeping if that could be possible.I am now walking like this poor guy right here. It has me pretty worried.

After 3 pregnancies,and carrying kids for 6 yrs almost back pain is not new to me.I always had little or minor incidents of back pain but it never give me this kind of pain.I feel like my lower back shifted to the left and my upper body is compensating so it wants to move against where my torso is heading.

I hate Chiropractor so I won't ever try to see one.I hate taking pain pills coz me and drugs are best enemies. Even when I had my C-sections and Laparoscopy I refused to take drugs for pain. I'm a wimp believe me,biggest one that is,I can't handle pain,any pain. But with this one I probably will consider muscle relaxing pill,that's not Vicodin right?I hope.

Don brought the girls to the church,I am so proud of him. This whole incident didn't stop him from going today.I would love to go but I can't walk straight and it really hurts. I miss them already.Hope he could handle three wiggly worms at the church.

The "F" Word

Some one is Sorry! hmmmp?!!

Are you a forgiver or do you struggle with this idea? Last night at the prayer meeting the topic was about FORGIVING. That the Bible teaches forgiving others is a prerequisite for God to forgive us. It seems unreasonable sometimes.Other times, I just don't know how and where to start. And staying mad takes a lot of my energy,it's something I can't hide. I get a lot of Stress Zits and it's driving me nuts! It is something I'm struggling with,My heart wants to do it but my mind is not letting go. Or whoever is controlling my little mind,lol. I've read a lot of self help books,inspiring quotes,even words of wisdom friends gave me but it is really one thing about me I can't control.Even after all the apologies,it will flare up again coming from nowhere. My marriage is mostly affected by this attitude. I'm hoping it's just a phase,that my hormones is the culprit. I don't want it to be me or my character.

And for my mental sake,I know I have to do something about it.Because I know that it does not cause much pain on that someone as I cause my self by holding onto that hurt. I know forgiveness like many other hardness in life, is a process.I may say now that is not for me because I am still hurting,the good thing I learned is that you can forgive and not associate yourself with that person again.This will prevent you from being hurt again by that person.( aysusss,Divorce ba etu kapatid?, and chaka naman kung ganun ang drama!)

Baptism: "Welcome to the Christian World Doniella,Corrine and Bridget !"

Going to San Bautista Mission Church every Sunday is kind of our little family tradition.We love the little town,It brings you back in time.The kids love the little ice cream shop there that we go to every after the mass.It's been our Sunday family time for almost three months now.So to be able to have our kids's baptism there is such an awesome experience. When the Priest,Father Jim told us he could accommodate us without going through all the loops,we decided to have their Baptism done right away.Also since Don's parents are flying back to California for his brother's wedding this Sunday it'll be perfect. But in every special events there are always obstacles unraveling on the last minute. Thursday night around 9-ish,Mom called telling us their flight to California is cancelled due to the bad weather and that they are stuck in Houston. It would have been more especial if Mom and Dad are present to witness it.And on the way to church,we had a flat tire,imagine that? And all we want is for this whole thing to be stress free :(

Don asked Doniella how she feels after being Baptized,She said without us prompting her, "I feel warmth,like being love!" And we look at each other and say,whoah! She's 6 yr old,it could've been that she really felt something. Thinking about it,gives me goosebumps! Surely kids or infants don't understand the whole reason behind baptism so it is up to us parents, and the Godparents to understand and live those values and pass it on to the kids or infants being baptized. After all,kids will learn Christianity from Home. My wish is for them
to grow more into being spiritual than religious so they will grow up to be
wiser,more compassionate and to have a meaningful life.

Took pictures of them at the altar!

So adorable,they are indeed my blessing!

Here,they are goofing around outside the mission church.

Reception took place at Jardines De San Juan.It's a nice garden setting,Mexican Restaurant. Perfect place for my newly baptized wiggly worms,so much room for them to run around.